FU-EYE-VUH.

UNEEDMEMORETHANINEEDU

i feel so dead right now but yet so alive. i have no will to do anything right now. im going to sleep eventually i guess.

whenever i wake up i have biology to do. it's memorial day, and that means one thing. if you're homophobic, don't go to pensacola beach. all of the fags are out parading around topless.

i wonder what is going to happen when i leave this place. i wonder if my life will be as wild and crazy as it has been. i wonder if i will have a hard time finding friends. i wonder if i will be able to focus better on schooll. i wonder if i will be in better shape. i wonder if i will just be the same person. i wonder if i'll be even worse.

i called ryan about twenty minutes ago. he hasn't called back yet and he probably never will. it is a good thing that he was never here in the first place. at least, not completely.

i miss talking to kady so much. i listened to placebo for a long time today and it reminded me of andy and ryar and kady and me. it reminded me of e-d and when i had no life outside of the internet but it was okay. i just... i wish that i could listen to bands i like without having break downs. i wish that i was stronger than i really am.

Carve your name into my arm.

Instead of stressed, I lie here charmed.

Cause there's nothing else to do,

Every me and every you.